I Can Not Dare

*written 24th May 2012*

I can not dare

To whisper the words

That whirl inside

My weary head

The ones I often

Dread

I’m scared of

Being hurt

Of getting it wrong

Of putting myself

Out there

And finding I am standing

Closer to your side of town

And worse still

I am standing all alone

Arms outstretched

I am falling,

Falling.

Into the abyss

Of confusion mixed with

This

A misplaced bliss

One that dares not kiss

For it’s all

Smokes and mirrors

Chaos

Anxiety

Smokescreens and mist,,,,,,

Ill tell you this

Nothing.

I’ll never tell.

I cannot dare.